it sucks to not be in love...

i havent seen much of my mom, considering our schedules are perfect opposites, and i tend to spend days at a time away from home...tonight she asked me "so who are you in love with?" ...caught a bit off guard...i dont usually speak of these things with my mother, but dad's not around so i decide to open up a little. the truth is, im not in love with anyone. its a strange predicament...considering i have always had some guy to crush on since first grade. so she asks "who would you like to be in love with?" and i wonder why i have so many answers to that question....and none to the other.