I am.

A wound - in all its fresh intensity and dull, age-worn nature - is at all times an integral part of who you are. God's grace and healing don't change that, they don't undo the past and sometimes they don't even give you the strength you need. Sometimes they simply give you the strength you'll get and time drags you along, burying the past in other memories. You'll never forget, you'll never reverse the wrongness, you'll just end up with more and more and more life between now and then.

I was always a woman who lost her pregnancy. I was always a mother. I was always a child. I am always my past and my future. We simply have the blessing and the curse of not knowing who we fully are yet.