something cliché

life is heavy right now and i feel as if i am about to fall. those i've relied upon my entire life are proving untrustworthy. theyre leaving me behind. it feels like they forgot me...out of sight out of mind. im still your child, and though i may look grown up, i still need you. i'm about to enter into the hardest part of my life thus far...and i dont feel like i can trust you; you, whom i most need to trust. i need you. i need your help. i cannot do this alone. i feel isolated and abandoned. youre making up cheap excuses for your own laziness, and it angers me. my wellbeing is still in your hands...and it feels like you forgot it and left it behind somewhere. dropped carelessly on the floor. and yet, i'm not strong enough to stand up on my own, i'm still learning to walk. i still need you there. i miss you too...but i also know what's best for me right now. but i still miss you.