i am tired

i am tired and restless. so much is different yet so much the same. i hate this time, this time where i feel like im teetering on a precipice and my stomach drops at each waver of balace as i lean further out over the edge. everything has been so incredibly hectic. i cant believe im back. last semester was all i knew, and now its so different. im going to run away. i wandered around campus, looking for someone, hoping someone would find me at this hour. i wanted to go down by the pond, i wanted to go somewhere, with someone...though i dont know who. i cant ask. i cant ask what i want to ask. i cant ask that of them. its not my place. its not my right. and asking would just be wrong. wrong for me. where shall i go now? where shall i wander...im so tired, yet i cannot sleep. im so hungry, yet i cannot eat. im so...lost right now. i dont know how, but thats what i feel like. this is the strangest feeling right now. im just so...stressed, i guess. eh, maybe the toga party in catacombs will help. i cant wait til open dorms...and im not really sure why.